Therefore, a few years ago I began to focus on how I could set my Self and my Ego aside and be open to allowing God to be in charge of my Lenten life. It has made a huge difference in how I exercise my heart, mind and soul during these days of preparation for Easter. First, I take out of the equation any benefit to me a discipline might bring. That is not to say I do not benefit in the end, but that benefit it not my primary concern. Second, I pay close attention in my prayers and meditations to what God is calling me to be or do, whatever the potential cost or gain may be to me personally. That means I have to be careful in my discernment of what sacrifices I may need to make or what burdens I may need to take on. Usually now that discernment pushes me deep into my spirit where I am called to look at the real me and take account of what God is truly calling me to be.

That brings me back to the theme of Deacon Marilyn’s sermon: when you are called to give up something you are also called to take up something. This year I am working on a part of me that needs setting aside, not just because it is a bad spiritual habit, but because it also gets in the way of my peace, my relationship with God and my relationship with others.

It is an internal quest from fear to tranquility with no outward show, but great promise for my soul and I am already finding it a great deal harder than giving up French fries for six weeks.

– The Reverend Dr. Michael Doty, Rector The Episcopal Church of the Holy Cross